A new gig.... working from home mommy!

Some of you may already know (due to the flood of emails and requests)... that I have decided to start my own business selling Tupperware. It's a product that I have loved for so many years and have respect for the product and the company. After having my own "in-home-party" in January and meeting the most amazing woman (who would later become my director)... I decided it would be a good fit for me and our family! Kayla gets so excited when we get a box of products and loves helping me go thru the box to unpack it.

I have always tried to give credit to those moms who have to pack up their family each day and head into the office.... it can't be easy. This is one reason I thought that working from home would be a good fit. However it is seriously one of the most difficult things to do! Telling Kayla that I have to work and that she has to go play for a bit is quite difficult. She is here and sees me and wants my attention. On the cusp of adding a new distraction to my day (with the newest baby Wilson)... I truly wonder how things will work out and how often I will be able to get work done during the day. I know Kayla will be heading to an extra day of nursery school in Sept and will have camp throughout the summer... I just hope Baby Wilson naps during those times so I can get some work done :)

Neighborly love...

We really hit the jackpot when we chose to move into this house just about one year ago. There is definite updating to be done but those proects will keep us busy for years to come. I am referring to the amazing neighbors we have. I so often hear about people who have neighbors are just unruley... but we are so lucky to be surrounded by generous people. Whether it be helping with the kids or playing with them... bringing us yummy food... helping give advice on yard or house issues... or just keeping us up to speed on all things regarding our house (from years past). We are truly blessed to have moved into this house... even to the point that last week when the lottery was high and we bought extra tickets, we said that we would not move... that we would just renovate like crazy!

Am I really ready to be out numbered?

Over the past few days, the reality of being outnumbered on a daily basis is really becoming a harsh reality that has overwhelmed me with anxiety. We are the ones who chose to expand our family and we are the ones who need to bare the brunt of those responsibilities. My husband works long hours and his commue makes for an added 3 hrs each day... Leaving me alone to care for our children for about 12 hours each day... on average. He is amazing with our daughter on the wkends and I know he will continue to be a huge source of help on the wkends... But what about those 12 hours each day I am left to do it solo?

Although this is the second time around and second c-section... I should know what to expect. Last time I did not have a 2.5 yr old climbing on me, needing me to cuddle or change a pull-up or drive them to preschool. I am more than nervous about the 1st few weeks this time around mostly b/c of the needs my 2.5 yr old has... not the baby! That, on top of the fact that my OBGYN had a little chat with me at my 32 wks visit (mostly b/c he saw how active she is and how much she depends on my attention)... He advised me that until my "incision check" at my 2 wk followup visit, I need to secure childcare for my older child b/c the things I would need to do for her, would hinder my recouperation.

Here comes my major anxiety... Although my husband and local friends are great. They have responsibilities such as work or their own children to care for. I can't drop Kayla off for playdates, because I can't drive. I can't ask people to take off work to help me out... And the there is the fact that I have general issues asking people for help b/c in the past there are ALWAYS strings attached with certain people and seriously it ends up being NOT WORTH IT!...hence my dilemia!

This baby has not even made its debut and I am already stressed about caring for two children.

I have heard so many times over the years that "it takes a village to raise a child".... I wish I had that village!